NTU COnvocation

2007 July 25 Super Sianx

Been a while since i blog. So far, July has rather been an interesting month. As in my previous entry, I was worried over the youths performance and guess what. Their performance was last Sat and they have done well. The performance standard has at least went up on level. From where they were when we first saw them, their performance standard has went up. Am proud that they have improved. Though comments from the audiences were encouraging, the youths still have a long way to go.

I bought flowers for a girl. Rather for a buddy. So far in my life, other than my mum, onli 3 girls have received flowers. Up till now, I still can't decipher why girls like flowers. Just like guys like their toys. Am just glad that Jean like the flowers that i bought. Buying flowers is very stressful. Heng, I dun buy flowers everyday. Its worse than sitting for an exams. N i always have this habit, whenever i hold flowers in my hand, my hand will tremble unknowingly n guess how bad it was trembling yesterday. Even Jia Ming n Pei Wen saw how my hand trembles when I was holding it. I dun noe i am very shy or rather very embarrassed to be seen carrying a bouquet of flowers. Wadever, it is, I am glad tat she likes the flowers though i had it delivered to NTU. Yeah n Jean congratulations on your graduation.

Am feeling very sianx. my 2 gd frenz dun let me gon play 2dae, though we plan last week liao. Tot i can go play n destressed 2dae. On leave for so long yet I am stuck at home studying. Tot I could go on a trip after my papers tml. Looking at things now, looks like I wont. So sad. My mum told me that we are going Kota Kinabulu on Monday and everything has been settled and I say okie. I gave her the money to make payment as I dun wish to disappoint my mum and my mum's friends mum whom I treat like a grandmother. N guess wad, the agent who is malay called and say tat they are unable to book accommodation 4 us. There was no mere mention of it and now..

Dun wish to show my mum my disappointment, I told her that its okay if she reschedule the trip and go without me. very sianx. Very disappointed that I can not go on a trip with my mum. Tot, Initially i can go on a trip with her alone and later, her frenz and her mum joined us. With her friend joining us, I was very disappointed liao and now. I told my mum tat i jus dun trust Malay run company. Though we are malays, i find that malay run companies are cheaters. Serious and i am not joking. After booking and paying deposit and promising us the stuffs, called to inform saying no accommodation and there gonna extra costs incurred.
i was like fuming mad.

No trip. No fun. Very sad.

Tml my accounting paper n i not prepared for it yet. How? Die liao! N muz plan wad to do liao.

SuPeR SianXX

2007 July 14 2007

Today, was supposed to be the rehearsal for all. It seems that things are not that smooth sailing yet for everything...

My life in a mess. MY classmates ignoring me. My friends deserting me. My exams round the corner. N i really feel like giving up. I am useless.

N the best part is that, I just realized at 2.15 am July 15 2007, i lost my O2 Atom Executive PDA phone. A phone that was with me for only abt 4 mths.

The most expensive phone I every bought and the shortest time that i have it wif me. I am so frustrated wif myself.

Am feeling sianx and ...

Why? this is like the 3rd time i lost a no contract phone? n in total, 6 phones, i lost liao...

its always the lousy phone like motorala, siemens, and sony ericcson tat i wont lose one. NOkia and O2, i confirm lose liao

AT least, I own my IPOD MINI 4 abt 2 years liao and its dying on me

i lost my phone. i lost. i am lost. i feel so useless. i am defeated. I am not what i am i think i used to be. Can sumbody help me find myself? I am lost. Am defeated

Help. I lost myself today. Pls help me find my way back. Pls before i do sumthing stupid

my life is in a mess.

2007 June 10 Tuesday

lie in this empty bed
with this aching head
you left me here this morning
now i can't remember why
i let you in again
to get under my skin
and every time you disappear
i remember

how i look for you
but i can't see your face
and then i hear you
the only thing you say

i am afraid right now
i don't wanna let you down
and i am the one who can't be saved
the only thing i say
i am afraid right now
what if i can't get out?
what if i don't want to be saved?
this is me afraid

now there's no place like home
to make me feel alone
i see you everywhere i am
and i remember how you ran out to hide
you kept me close behind
following your every move so i remember

i look for you
but i can't see your face
then i hear you
the only thing you say is
don't look for me
cause you will never say
you won't hear me
you won't hear me

why do we keep this up?
why do we live like us?
when there is nothing left to save
will you be afraid?

Jul 1 2007

Hair for Hope is CCF's annual fundraising event which sees members of the public shaving bald in support of children with cancer.

Children with cancer typically lose hair when they undergo chemotherapy treatment. Hair for Hope is the only head-shaving event in Singapore and undertaking this symbolic act of shaving helps to raise awareness of childhood cancer and monetary donations in aid the CCF beneficiaries.

Close to 900 volunteers, comprising men, women, children and babies, bravely shed their locks to send the message of hope and love to our children. With the act of each volunteer stepping forward to shave their head, it represents the understanding by an individual of the ordeals which a child with cancer is subjected to.

Your shaved head, now undoubtedly a topic of interest among your friends, family members and colleagues, is a great way to start a conversation on how children with cancer deserve our support!

This project is what we have chosen to do in solidarity of children with cancer and in celebration of their courage. Thank you for being a part of Hair for Hope 2007.

Shaving my head Bald is sumthing that I will never dream of doing cuz i am vain. My hair has always been my crowning glory n will always be. An f for me to shave it off, I was like so sad.

Do you noe tat I was so sad after shaving my head bald even though I did it out of my own accord? I was so sad. Lucky for me, I had the support of the pp ard me. n the small things tat CG did tat dae by patting me on the back and comforting me me made me feel better. I was like I did the right thing. And i dun care how things gonna turn out tml. Main thing, i was proud tat i did shave my head bald.

Cheers for all the BAld pp out there. And to our dear beneficiaries, pls persevere and have the strong will to fight. Its never ez. LIfe is short and njoy all we can

07 Jul 07 A week after I am botak

It has been a week since I am a botak. The past one week has been a challening one for me cuz I was given mixed reactions from the public.

The nice, the ugly, the nasty, the ...... from Singaporeans

Being bald and a slight cough from you, from a sardine like packed train and people squeezing in ard you and a slight cough, from where you are standing, there will be a gap ard u

Sum pp ard us are like baboons and inconsiderate. I truly feel the hurtness that some Singaporeans ard us are experiencing. NOt only are they battling for their life to survive, they also have to bear the gruntness of Singaporeans.