Monday 20th July 2009,

Waking up in sombre mood, I dragged myself up in bed. I really wish I am off dead. I would say I am now a walking zombie. A living man with no soul, no pride, no joy lugging around a heavy burden where no one else knows. I have been lifeless. Even walking around nowadays, I have no pride. My sense of pride is gone forever.

I am kind of unwell today. Fever, dehydrated & loss of appetite. My friends say I have no glow today. I am like a walking zombie today.

I dare not share or do not know who I can trust with my problems now. I am screwed.

Thursday, 16 July, 2009

It was a rough day at work today & rougher even when home. My worst nightmare came true. The notice was served. Deep in my heart, I was hoping that the notice will not be served as I planned to settle it end of next week.

I am really scared and worried. My future just goes bleak from now on. How am I going to overcome this? Am I going to ruin my future just like?


Cancelled my plans totally for the week as I am now in this mess