Monday 20th July 2009,

Waking up in sombre mood, I dragged myself up in bed. I really wish I am off dead. I would say I am now a walking zombie. A living man with no soul, no pride, no joy lugging around a heavy burden where no one else knows. I have been lifeless. Even walking around nowadays, I have no pride. My sense of pride is gone forever.

I am kind of unwell today. Fever, dehydrated & loss of appetite. My friends say I have no glow today. I am like a walking zombie today.

I dare not share or do not know who I can trust with my problems now. I am screwed.